Fab Feb !

Hmmm... the romantic February is about to leave me...
just the way the childhood queries left me 10 years back,
and the thought-less work-less time left me 7 years back.

February has usually been the best of the months for me. This year, too, was no different.

The Feb Fab Five events were:

1. Calm, Silent yet energizing Birthday.

2. Long, break-journeys yet refreshing train trips.

3. Closest Buddy's marriage- Creation of a bond, and snapping of some ties.

4. AIPG results - Happiness for some and despair for many.

5. College Magazine - The nth time it is re-opened, yet the excitement and optimism seems to be endless.

And all through this month despite being very busy...the blog never slept. :-))

Thanks Blogger! I had scheduled all the posts by the very first week of February, for their respective dates.

All were 'love', 'hate', 'valentine' centric--> a salute to the romantic emotion february signifies.

Also, Read The Namesake: A beautiful novel essaying the dilemmas of ABCDs to be specific, and every Indian by large. Thumbs Up!! 

Gonna be celebrating the arrival of March with fanfare this time.... 

Raising the spirits and the fumes...

Dining and Stepping up to the tunes...

Birthday - IV

Ohh well yeah! I have 3 posts dedicated to the plans I had for the Birthday, but how it turned out to be has not yet been shared.

The excerpts:

Spent an hour on the phone 

receiving the calls of the close.

A small peck on the cheek

and a hand on the head,

which has blessed me every year.

The night sublimed, to caress

the cute little spirit she once created.

Early morning I was born,

to be showered with the love 

of Grand-ma & pa.

The cute tall brother and me

had his favorite breakfast made by me.

Mum and Sister had called in the night

and as it appeared, 

Mum had wept a tear or two.

Went to the hospital, 

returned back early.

Opened the gift,

the adventure of unearthing

the pearl from the oyster

pumped me up.

Sumo, unique was the gift,

as much unique as our friendship is. Hi-5!!

A lunch at a small unfrequented restaurant

was the fun moment,

the family sat there, 

with an irritated brother.

I wore his new shirt...

Did I want to feel younger?

Or maybe, I just wanted to tease him. 

The afternoon we talked and packed.

Evening we went for a dinner

after the small chocolate pie cutting.

I left him to the station,

and later Daddy too.

Grannys anyways sleep early.

Going to the hostel, 

I kissed my gal friends,

chit-chats over 30 minutes 

did feel insufficient.

Back to home, I lay in my room,

on the bed with 

a book and the phone 

by my side.

Called up a buddy 

who was busy to talk.

And then another 

who shares my b'day.

And then the network went away,

to my utter dismay.

The calls ended 

yet there was an hour to go,

before the day, 

destined to be mine, would sleep.

Hypnotized I flew, 

into the thoughts that occurred,

of past, present, and the oblivious future.

When the subconscious decided to sleep

I did not know, 

but yes,

I woke up to a happy bright morning next day.

That I remember.

PS: I just wanted to document how my birthday was.

You see...

You see...

I'm alive...

Having an independent existence.

And, I have a life too.

Some relations of which I'm a part of.

Some responsibilities which I'm in-charge of.

Some happiness that arises not from you,

And some sorrows that are not your reflections.

A full life I have.

To be led and lived.

You see...

I'm alive...

It was hard to believe initially...

All this while, I had required you as a proof to my living.

You meant the breathe to me

I had illusion-ed you, to be my heart

Which, IF would cease, 

would take me away along-with.

But, I've beat

To feel & fear.

You see...

I'm alive...

Ever since you left me alone in this world.

I had wailed, cried, hurt, cursed; 

the senses had been outwitted.

I had smiled, laughed, stared focus-lessly; 

till smiles drowned in tears.

But, Them I've wiped

To focus & rise.

You see...

I'm alive...

Even after you snatched the thing I held dearest.

I've lived without it.

I've lived without YOU...

It was a blatant lie about our companionship that we had sworn.

Of being there for each other every single time.

But, A truth the lie was,

To believe & accept.

You see...

I'm alive...

And do I miss you? No.

I stand tall, flourished even in your absence.

You were, probably, the spring to me;

In which I flowered & fruited.

If I must miss,

I miss the smiles & frowns that you instilled in me.

Not you I miss.

You see...

I'm Alive...

Still.

What hurts more than the absence of the dear ones in life, is the remembrance of memories past.

...And memories you can't erase.

Death, Love, Hate, Life.                                      (Written - 30.01.2011)