Jan 5, 2011

The Last Toast


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Raising the toast last,
to all, that happened in the past,
The tumbler's been rested,
and the euphoria which had nested,
in the circuits crazy, & breaths bated;
for times quite long; has evaporated.
The hangover too, has passed away,
Things are clear, all along the way.

Raising the toast last,
to the times we staged a blast,
We loved, cared & rocked,
We fought, cried & hugged.
It was so memorable, beautiful;
It was good but, not wonderful.
The memories've been put down.
Even though you're in the town,
the world seems clearer,
fine, in place, and equally messier.

Raising the toast last,
to the life- impending & vast.
Future beckons me & you,
Step we must into it & give it its due.
Different, let be the path,
After all, different souls we hath.
Neither made-for-each-other,
nor enemies or arch-rivals or haters.

It's the toast last, as our souls
depart, disperse & roll
away into unknown terrains.
Searching for the remains?
No, there's no time & use
to cherish, or rant or rumble or muse.
Today, a new robe our relation wore;
Of friends; Yeah, the love one I tore.

Sorry, but
the tumbler has been rested,
and the euphoria has evaporated.
Still,
There's one thing I am proud to boast,
It was I who took the charge to raise the last toast.
...To raise the last toast.

Jan 3, 2011

...Ain't ??

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They say it is silly to hold on to memories of the one which would not be back....

But, ain't Love another name to Optimism??
Of hoping for the miracles to happen?



They say it is the rule of the universe to search for that substitute which fulfills your needs...

But, ain't Love an emotion and not a need??
An emotion of one's care for another?



They say it is hurting oneself to live in an illusion and repel the reality...

But, ain't Love a reality??
A reality which hurts occasionally but instills happiness usually?



They say, Open your arms to others embrace...

But, won't Love, that I hold now, fall at opening of arms?
The love, trust, faith that I keep held close to me?



They say, Take a step ahead, and enter the dreams of another...

But, won't that crush the mud-house of Love, which was built one season?
The mud-house, the dreams of which still brings the smile?




They say, Let it Go, it was not meant for you...

But, what if the Love still clenches and possesses the soul?
The soul which is heavenly connected to the other?




They say, Don't end your life like this...

But, is this NOT living a life?
Full of Love, nil expectations, only dreams, and lots of optimism?

Jan 1, 2011

Conspiracy

All right, this is one feeling, which I NOW know, has been through the minds of all the medical students. And I did mention ALL here. At least ONCE it definitely would have.

God conspired against me and hence, sent me to Medicine.


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When, How and Why did we feel this is completely, an another story. (And I would rather not dwell into it.)

I had my share of this feeling ever since I entered the degree course, the so-called M.B.B.S.
After joining the course, a month's wrath was enough to make me feel unfitted. But, my dears insisted me to continue & I gave to their wishes.

5 years of life into medicine, I have literally 'passed' my life i.e. in the sense of 'time-pass'. The only motivations I have had on and off have been from the clinics and the researches.
The academic life sucks. Especially since I hate theories. The books are highly un-interesting to me since I seriously can't just read onto such an interesting science and imagine things.

Anyways, apart from the occasional attractions after working in clinics, I rarely find times when I feel I suit to the field of Medicine.

But, sadly I don't find a way out either.
And, sadly I won't earn much either.
And, grimly, I would still be a graduate, once I am out. Even after 6 years of studies.
Also, there's isn't much anyone's left to do after they've passed this sentence.

So, I have all the reasons to believe that God conspired against me.
And, I know he's enjoying sitting there, high above, watching me feel confused, frustrated and irritated.
Haaa!!
Have a Laugh, God !
I'll pass the challenges. You keep on looking.
 ;-)

PS: I know this is the completely imperfect time of the year to rant against God, or for the matter of fact anyone. I am sorry readers. But, I had to.
Also, May this year be clear, progressive, happy, and joyous. Wishes.